In Jars of Clay

In Jars of Clay

For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ. But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us.
2 Corinthians 4:6-7 New International Version

I keep forgetting that I hold a treasure inside. So many things come to rob me of this knowledge on a daily basis. My low self esteem is a constant criminal, lying to me that I am not valuable enough to hold such wonders. Sometimes other people deride, poke and prod until I forget the treasure is still there. And sometimes painful circumstances blindfold me from the truth. The truth is that light has been hidden in this jar of clay.

Knowledge of Christ is the light and I am the jar. And I wonder why God would want to place something so precious inside such an impractical and fragile container? I don't stand up very well to pressure and if bumped I easily break. I spend a lot of time sort of gluing the broken pieces back together. If I could see me in a mirror after the repairs, I imagine I would look more like a mosaic design than a suitable faith carafe.

I have done it again... I have focused in on my current state instead of the way God sees me. I have forgotten that God entrusts the light of His son in whom He pleases. And my worry should be less of my form or condition, and more that I follow the intended function. The function is to carry the light! And I should focus less on why He placed it in me and focus on celebrating that I hold such a wondrous thing in this jar of clay.